Day 20 and counting...

I have been all over this town non-stop collecting evidence to prove I am not a bad mother. I have worked so hard the last 10 years to make sure my son was safe, healthy, and knew he could love who he wanted..and yet he was still ripped from my arms. It is basically legalized kidnapping I am dealing with, but it makes it no easier. As if things are not any harder to deal with, I think I have an ear infection pending. Tonight, I am drained. Mentally, and physically. I don't understand why the physically, but I know the mentally. I'm going to start getting to the gym starting tomorrow night, because I need to both shed some weight and exercise to relieve some of the stress I am feeling. Not having Chase with me is really taking its toll.