A word we all fight to ignore. It is the hardest at night. When I lie in my bed and wish he was there to hold me. I often cry myself to sleep because I know he is thousands of miles away. And then I tell myself to just suck it up, you married into this. You knew it could happen. You knew your life would be this way. And when the morning comes I pull myself out of bed. And I stiffen my backbone up. And I put on a happy face because I know I need to be strong so my two boys dont lose grip on thier happiness. I struggle to make my way through the day, fearing the time when I end up in our bed alone. Watching as the darkness engulfs what is destined to be my night time routine until he retires.
The alarm buzzes loudly with some obscene song I chose, I sit up and stiffen my backbone again. My day begins again.
About Me
- Arica Earley
- I am currently a SAHM (Stay at home Mother). My world evolves around my children. I strive to make the world a better place by putting one foot in front of the other. I support our Troops, they give us our freedom by doing what we ourselves don't have the balls to do. I love you guys. I avoid drama like the plague. I speak my mind. I hold no grudges. I keep no secrets. My life is my own, as yours belongs to you. If they intertwine at some point, it is meant to be.
2 comments:
Hi, I am new to this and just wanted to comment. I am a SAHM Army wife as well. I live in Alaska at Fort Wainwright. Anyway, just wanted to say hi and let you know that I know just how you are feeling about being so far away from your husband. I'm about go through my 2nd deployment.
I will be home soon hun to help you out once again and to let sleep in on the weekend....
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