Tuesday, January 4, 2011
I have been all over this town non-stop collecting evidence to prove I am not a bad mother. I have worked so hard the last 10 years to make sure my son was safe, healthy, and knew he could love who he wanted..and yet he was still ripped from my arms. It is basically legalized kidnapping I am dealing with, but it makes it no easier. As if things are not any harder to deal with, I think I have an ear infection pending. Tonight, I am drained. Mentally, and physically. I don't understand why the physically, but I know the mentally. I'm going to start getting to the gym starting tomorrow night, because I need to both shed some weight and exercise to relieve some of the stress I am feeling. Not having Chase with me is really taking its toll.
Monday, January 3, 2011
There have been so many things going on lately I can't seem to make heads or tails of them. My oldest son is now in the State of Oregon under temporary custody of my ex husband. According to him, my son is making accusations towards my current spouse about him abusing us. I know all the accusations are untrue, and I am working my tail end off to get the custody order turned over. However, after the temporary is turned over I will then have to go through another court hearing for actual custody of my son. For 10 years I have had sole custody of my gorgeous little doe-eyed boy, and now I am lost because I haven't spoken to him in 19 days. No phone calls, no emails, no text messages, no nothing at all. I have an almost three year old boy running around the house looking for his brother non-stop, and no answers to share with my oldest sons school. What do I do? Where do I go? What do I say to people? When can I hold my son and tell him I love him, and I know this isn't his fault?