Wednesday, December 31, 2008
My visit has nearly come to an end in Oregon. I have seen more snow here than I remember in my life. I have seen friends that mean the world to me. I have removed people from my life that are poison. I have made new friends to enjoy for the years.
I came to several very strong realizations. My life is simple, yet hectic. My life is strong, but there are some weak points. But most of all, my life is just mine. No one elses to dictate. No one elses to make choices with. I married my best friend, my lover, my rock. He has done everything for me he possibly can with our distance. But he is mine. And he loves me. And he loves our sons.
I have traveled not only throughout the states, but other parts of the world as well. I have had not only one very handsome son, but I now have two. I have friends that have been with me for over 20 years. I have friends that have been with me for over 15 years. I have friends that have been with me for over 10 years. My husband and I are heading into 4 years of marriage at this time.
I have been through divorce. I have been through custody court. I am a believer that what does not kill you will make you stronger. I have survived life, and kicked it's ass. Yet it has kicked my ass as well at times. But I still move forward. Because my life is worth living.
I have many blessings that sometimes I don't see.
So my Resolutions this year are simple. Nothing outlandish. And here they are for God and all to see.
1) I will not speak about anything other than my son's safety and accomplishments with a certain someone. I will not be drug into his drama and outlandish lifestyle. He has not ever grown up, and never will.
2) I will lose 50 pounds hopefully by the time Jim gets home in June. If not, definitely by the time I write a new Resolution Blog.
3) I will quit drinking completely. It is not only a complete waste of money, but I tend to make an ass of myself and am tired of people remembering me from the bar. I have so many better qualities than that.
So there it is, and I will keep you updated through the year on my progress.
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
Monday, December 22, 2008
Last night she went to spend the night in Sweet Home with some other friends she has known for a long time. *Quick update, I just looked outside and it is snowing here in Albany* She thought I would be upset, but I am not. She is a lot like myself and gets cabin fever when in a spot too long. So I'm not mad, I understand.
I would love to post some pictures for you all, but I don't want to put a bunch of them on Moms computer. So for right now you will just have to suffer.
OK, time to get off here.
Friday, December 19, 2008
We made up some time in the air and instead of arriving at 9 pm, it ended up being 930 pm. Which is still better than nothing. Dad and Mom picked us up, loaded up the boys and luggage and away we went! The roads out of Portland were pretty good, but once we hit Woodburn you totally knew where all the retarded drivers were! We saw a jack knifed semi truck, a pick up down in the ditch..and Oh Yeah...How about the ass that thought speeding was OK and damn near took out the back end of my Dad's truck with the ass end of his truck? I'm pretty sure the damage points to his truck are pretty good considering he slid the entire length of a small bridge with the front driver's side. I thought for sure we were going to be crushed, but Dad's good in the snow!
It started to snow from Woodburn on, and stopped about 0600 this morning. And it just started a few minutes ago again. So we shall see how this week pans out.
Thursday, December 18, 2008
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
Monday, December 15, 2008
I am wondering too much.
Saturday, December 13, 2008
He had a small case of turtle lap tonight. I tried to get some pictures of Chase and the dog he made himself but he simply stated *no camera's please Mommy.* So I left him be for tonight. We are going to head out with my Sister In Law tomorrow to a National Guard Christmas party. So that should take most of the day, and then I will have to stop at the super Wal-Mart in Lisbon for a few more things so I can finish up prepping for packing to go to Oregon. It's difficult to travel when you have a baby. There is soooo much crap you think you need, and then you don't. And let's not forget the crap you leave behind that all of a sudden you do need. Ugh. I'm happy I closed my factory. Hehehe. Even though I do make beautiful babies, they truly are a lot of work indeed.
So again, I really Thank You Matt for being such a wonderful friend to my family and I. It is not often you meet someone with a good heart and honest intentions that does not have a problem being brutally honest. Or keeping people in line. Or just showing someone they are worth the time and energy. You had made a friend for life with our family.
We Love Ya Trouble Maker!
Friday, December 12, 2008
Devin, Chase and Jonah moved FAST when it came time to line up and talk to Santa. Yes, they were within the first few kids to ruin Santa's pants. Oh, and did I mention Squeaky loves the taste of Peppermint Candy Canes? Yes, Thanks Matt. He was sucking on it like there was not tomorrow!
Thursday, December 11, 2008
This is Mr. Cummings speaking with Chase right before he received his belt and certificate from Master Cheezic.
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
The door handle on the car was fixed today. So now I don't have to reach into the back from the front on the passenger side anymore. It's a blessing because Squeaky is hard to maneuver in his Maggie Simpson outfit.
As you can tell, someone is in the Christmas spirit. I am, but I'm not at the same time. I'm going to see if the In Laws will take the boys for a few hours so I can get the car loaded up and then put all the Christmas Presents out so it looks like Santa visited. That way when we get home I will have kept my promise that Santa knows where we live. Nice thinking, huh Mom? Right now I am going to log off here and get some sleep. I have had a lot on my mind lately and I'm really tired now.
Monday, December 8, 2008
I just wanted to let you all know Squeaky went in for his 9 month well check today and got a HUGE thumbs up. On the 7th, he woke up with the switch turned on and started crawling. It was the most amazing thing to see. And he did it a lot more today as well. So he's getting the hang of it, and I'm moving things around again. Meanwhile, as I was telling his pediatrician that he has not even tried to sit up on his own from his tummy..Damned if he didn't do it right then and there! Yeah, he sat up all by himself. And we both just stared at him. And then I realized what he had done and started to clap, saying YAY!! I think I scared him because his face puckered up. At this time he is 29 inches long and weighs 20 pounds. He has 3 teeth in and 2 more popping through. Dr. Terry did give him a prescription for Flouride drops which I filled. Oddly enough though I found out today that our insurance rejected the flouride drops..Any ideas?
On Sunday I will also share that my big boy had his birthday party. Not only was it fun, but it was not nearly as stressful as I thought it was going to be. We invited a terrific group of kids, who have an even better group of parents! I was able to take pictures, and spend time with Chase because a lot of the parent's were busy loving up on Squeaky! And did he enjoy it? Oh heck yeah!! The pizza for the party arrived on time, the cake was really yummy, and Chase loved opening his presents..Rachel took some fantastic pictures with my camera for me. And it looked as though everyone really enjoyed themselves. Towards the end you could see some really pooped kids running around. And the parent's looked the same way.
But we all made it through, and we all laughed, and we all went home happy. Some of us more sugared up than others! Normally we would have just had a simple at home party with a small group of overnighters, but one of Chase's friends is allergic to cats. Which we learned when he threw up on my floor the last time he visited. Hehehe..It's ok..It was the linoleum one! Not to mention that Chase has really had a rough time this year with Jim being gone and his father being a horse's patoot so we mutually decided a party outside the home would be ideal this year.
So we did, and now there are tons of pictures for everyone to enjoy. Some pictures more than others! *wink*
Saturday, December 6, 2008
Today we headed out to Karate, did some practice. Then off to George's for lunch. It's Chase's favorite place to eat here in Danielson. And I want to say Thank You to who ever it was that paid our bill. I couldn't tell you in the slightest who it was, but seriously, Thank You. You made us smile today, and the waitress got a great tip in the process.
And then off to Webster we headed where I found a place to order pizza from. $60.00 later I ordered 5 pizzas to be delivered for Chase's party tomorrow.
Thursday, December 4, 2008
I am proud to share that Chase will be grading next Wednesday for his Karate School. I will let you all know how he does and what his new rank is. Things are looking like they are smoothing out a little bit finally.
Squeaky is growing like a weed. He is already wearing a lot of 18 month clothes which surprises me since he will only be 9 months tomorrow. Three teeth are in, and there are two more where those came from.
But right now I need to scoot..time to go watch the hot Doctor on Grey's Anatomy!
Wednesday, December 3, 2008
He is getting to a point with his Karate where he is getting discouraged because he can not concentrate and wants to leave the program. Which is truly sad because he started out so strongly and really does have a natural talent inside him. And I do work with him at home but can only do so much when I don't know the steps myself to make sure he is doing it correctly. I do attend every class and watch but the predominance of the time I am unable to see what he is doing because he is training at the far back of the classroom. So maybe he and a few of the other students can be saved?
Now MySpace and the blogs. This is what I do not understand. People write blogs for therapy. To get thoughts out. To share ideas. To share moments in life. To just write simply for killing time purposes. But do they really stop and look at what they are writing? It is true I do not know the lives of some of the people I read blogs on outside of what they write. And to be frankly honest I would enjoy getting to know some of these people. Everyone has a story in them. Everyone has something positive to share with society, but not all people know how to portray that gift. Most people are not even aware of the impact they have on others. Having stated that, when I read the many, many blogs this person had written there was a lot of things within these blogs that could easily have been misconstrued as extremely negative issues. And I can say that I am most definitely not the only person who may have ever read and thought what I did.
When I write it is to share openly my thoughts, feelings and life with the people who read this. I have nothing to hide. I have a really good life right now, but I won't lie when I say that it has not always been this way. I have learned many things over time, and my biggest lesson is that I am responsible for myself and my children only in this world. And because of this, I keep my eyes wide open. If I have tripped up, said or done something stupid, I address it right away now. It was not always that way. People who have known me for a very long time are nodding their heads at this moment saying Yes Indeed. But I am cautious as to what I write and share because I know I have several friends children on my MySpace page who are still at a very impressionable age. The very, very last thing I ever want to hear from one of my beloved friends is *Well, he/she learned that from your page*. I would fall apart should someone get hurt because of my negative actions.
So I may not write a lot on my blog, but when I do it is because something has deeply affected me and I need to get it out and let it be dealt with. Good or bad, it is reality. But I keep it in the back of my mind that whatever I write here is what others will read. And they will all have a different perception of what I am stating. And each person's opinion is their own. And gladly welcomed. I make take offense at what others will say, but it will be thought about and either accepted or disregarded. I will either learn from it or just move along.
But know that it will be read and acknowledged by myself. And all others who may read it. and if you don't want it to be read and judged, set it to private.